*toot* *toot* *toot* *toot* *toot* *toot* *toot*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
See? Case in point proven.
Tuesday, 30 June 2009
Frustration
I feel lousy.
Not because situations ain't good, it's because i'm ain't good.
Why do i keep falling???
Damnit.
Not because situations ain't good, it's because i'm ain't good.
Why do i keep falling???
Damnit.
Monday, 29 June 2009
Tuesday, 23 June 2009
As you all know, i'm left out of this social networking frenzy...
So, to join or not to join???
Do put your thoughts... in the comments plz!!!
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I've been thinking about the phrase my pastor has been saying for quite a while now - B.U.S.Y - Being Under Satan's Yoke. Can be very, very true...
So, to join or not to join???
Do put your thoughts... in the comments plz!!!
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I've been thinking about the phrase my pastor has been saying for quite a while now - B.U.S.Y - Being Under Satan's Yoke. Can be very, very true...
Sunday, 21 June 2009
One of the craziest part of our gospel of Jesus Christ is the message of love and grace in the world today.
To do good to those who hate you.
To forgive those who hurt you.
To care for those in need - regardless of who they are.
To be able to be joyful even in the toughest times.
And that is something even some Christians themselves can't accept.
To do good to those who hate you.
To forgive those who hurt you.
To care for those in need - regardless of who they are.
To be able to be joyful even in the toughest times.
And that is something even some Christians themselves can't accept.
Saturday, 20 June 2009
Grace
Living in the midst of tempation
I struggle and easily fall
The inkling to destroy self
Appear once more
Facing right into the face of evil
I stumble to become like the the heathen
Flesh taking away my beam
Taken over by lust that corrupts
Surrounded by perversion
I taint and mutilate myself
Doing things i should never even consider
Addicted to things i shouldn't even, touch
So i cry out in desperation
To the Almighty forsaking all
Because i am an unworthy vessel
A monster, saved by grace;
Requiring His grace,
Once more.
I struggle and easily fall
The inkling to destroy self
Appear once more
Facing right into the face of evil
I stumble to become like the the heathen
Flesh taking away my beam
Taken over by lust that corrupts
Surrounded by perversion
I taint and mutilate myself
Doing things i should never even consider
Addicted to things i shouldn't even, touch
So i cry out in desperation
To the Almighty forsaking all
Because i am an unworthy vessel
A monster, saved by grace;
Requiring His grace,
Once more.
Thursday, 18 June 2009
Monday, 15 June 2009
Worship
So what about worship?
Warning: This is an opinion post and can be quite long.
So... That's the point right? or is it not?
Or is it just another form of soft emo pop-rock?
A question we must all ask ourselves, rather.
After leading worship in my local church for 2-3 services, some of the comments i received (which was all done in good spirit, ok!) made me think deeply: There must be something more than this. It wasn't because the spirit of God wasn't there, it was because there is something else present, something that limits God...
I mean.
First thing is the focus of the people who comes to worship. Is it so they can shout and scream and jump and cry till their lungs come out (like FOB's This ain't a scene, it's an arms race) in a 'clean' manner? Or just to have a emotional experience? Or attend a B-grade concert week-in, week-out? Aren't our purpose in life (which is one being Christian is about-having a purpose) much, MUCH more than this? Sure, the worship thing in church where everyone raises their hands, sing along is very communal, beautiful and emotional (who says having a relationship with God isn't emotional?), but the point should be much, much, deeper than just that.
Like when having a relationship is much more than just the emotions. Which explains why there are so many divorces and unwanted children (don't spam this on me, i'm also a sexual being). Same like all this, worship is much more. One thing is certain, worship is much more than just cool music. It is way much more.
The atheists will spam me right about now.
"We have, within a matter of 50 years, completely changed the entire concept of what is a worship service. We’ve adopted an approach that demands ridiculous levels of musical, technical and financial commitment and resources.
Diversity, generational compatibility, even simplicity are all being blown up. Worship is now a major audience event, led by skilled entertainers, aimed at a demographic and judged by the audience reaction.
Warning: This is an opinion post and can be quite long.
"Worship literally means "worth-ship". Giving worth to something.[1] In its older sense in English of worthiness or respect (Anglo-Saxon,worthscripe), worship may on occasion refer to an attitude towards someone of immensely elevated social status, such as a lord or a monarch, or, more loosely, towards an individual, such as a hero or one's lover.
'Worship' is quite often used to refer to acts, expressions and/or a state of religious devotion typically directed to one or more deities." - Wikipedia on the term worship
So... That's the point right? or is it not?
Or is it just another form of soft emo pop-rock?
A question we must all ask ourselves, rather.
After leading worship in my local church for 2-3 services, some of the comments i received (which was all done in good spirit, ok!) made me think deeply: There must be something more than this. It wasn't because the spirit of God wasn't there, it was because there is something else present, something that limits God...
I mean.
First thing is the focus of the people who comes to worship. Is it so they can shout and scream and jump and cry till their lungs come out (like FOB's This ain't a scene, it's an arms race) in a 'clean' manner? Or just to have a emotional experience? Or attend a B-grade concert week-in, week-out? Aren't our purpose in life (which is one being Christian is about-having a purpose) much, MUCH more than this? Sure, the worship thing in church where everyone raises their hands, sing along is very communal, beautiful and emotional (who says having a relationship with God isn't emotional?), but the point should be much, much, deeper than just that.
Like when having a relationship is much more than just the emotions. Which explains why there are so many divorces and unwanted children (don't spam this on me, i'm also a sexual being). Same like all this, worship is much more. One thing is certain, worship is much more than just cool music. It is way much more.
The atheists will spam me right about now.
"We have, within a matter of 50 years, completely changed the entire concept of what is a worship service. We’ve adopted an approach that demands ridiculous levels of musical, technical and financial commitment and resources.
Diversity, generational compatibility, even simplicity are all being blown up. Worship is now a major audience event, led by skilled entertainers, aimed at a demographic and judged by the audience reaction.
God? God has been moved around to be things like a reluctant Spirit we sing down with our songs or a divine innovator always blessing as much radical change as possible.
Why do I call this a goof? Because there is no way for this to end well. This is like a NASCAR car with the throttle stuck open. We’re stuck on a roller coaster and we can’t get off.
Worship has now become a musical term. Praise and worship means music. Let’s worship means the band will play. We need to give more time to worship doesn’t mean silent prayer or public scripture reading or any kind of participatory liturgy. It means music.
Even singing is getting lost in this. As the volume and the performance level goes up, who knows who is singing?
And who can stand for 20, 30 or 40 minutes?" - Internet monk, a blogger.
That was my main dissapointment with rallies and mega-scaled concerts. That's why i'm now weary of Lakewood, Hillsong, Planetshakers, Passion and the like. It has turned into a big buck business, nothing else.
In fact, it has already been so for many years.
It's not that i don't like the songs or the way they worship (hey, i still use their songs). It's the point of it.
And please don't get me started on mega-churches.
Somebody prominent in the worship music industry (yeah, right) has mentioned that worship is a lifestyle. And i'm stuck just about here. Besides, having earache after 'worship' is... ridiculous.
So what is worship and what is it for?
Isn't it obvious?
So i say it again.
So what about worship?
"I definitely think that worship is broader than just with music. But I think that worship with music definitely has its place." -a response to Internet monk.
Sunday, 14 June 2009
Getting taught a lesson in not caring
I've decided not to care on somethings. My family in particular. No point in investing in things that will not bear fruit.
It's a form of letting go in a way.
But whatever it is, i'll let the things take it's course.
I know i'm bitter.
But i don't accept crap. Cause i'm worth more, much more than that.
Edit: next, bullshitting about worship. most probably.
Tempations. AARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH.
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You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You
I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands
So what about this song?
It's a form of letting go in a way.
But whatever it is, i'll let the things take it's course.
I know i'm bitter.
But i don't accept crap. Cause i'm worth more, much more than that.
Edit: next, bullshitting about worship. most probably.
Tempations. AARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH.
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You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You
I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands
So what about this song?
Saturday, 13 June 2009
Changes.
I've decided to change somethings:
My profile explanation - it's too artificial.
My priorities. Well, just demoting somethings from the top. Will tell more soon.
Language. More direct seems to be more effective. in short, no more mr. nice guy. also, profanities filtering. need to root it out. Will explain more.
Reliance on certain people. Not you, don't worry. But it's personal.
Might remove some youtube videos from this site. Again, personal reasons.
All this cause:
1) i'm down (hey, i am a volatile person)
2) i realised somethings. Credit it to growing up.
Oh, i will not post regarding church camp. But since when was i so predictable?
My profile explanation - it's too artificial.
My priorities. Well, just demoting somethings from the top. Will tell more soon.
Language. More direct seems to be more effective. in short, no more mr. nice guy. also, profanities filtering. need to root it out. Will explain more.
Reliance on certain people. Not you, don't worry. But it's personal.
Might remove some youtube videos from this site. Again, personal reasons.
All this cause:
1) i'm down (hey, i am a volatile person)
2) i realised somethings. Credit it to growing up.
Oh, i will not post regarding church camp. But since when was i so predictable?
Friday, 12 June 2009
Tagged back. Nice... :-)
By Wen Dee. Will put up some reply regarding her thoughts about me in blue since i did this b4... hehehe.
Edit: added stone's. In Red.
1. Who are you?
Erm, i don't know... LOL!!!!
2. Are we friends?
Yep.
Definitely. Saliva-mates (when sleeping) in JS because our beds are neighbours physically.
3. When and how did we meet?
MYF. When i was F1...
JS 2009. You rock dude.
4. Did you like me at all?
She's a pleasant girl... Makes me smile at her comments. Don't think otherwisE!!!!!
yep. If not mana boleh tahan for 6 weeks leh.
She likes me? hmm... (lol)
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
I pick Dee-jie, juz to make her feel old... :-p
Stone. It's self explanatory.
I'm only fond of tomatoes only coz i like red...
6. Describe me in one word.
(i'll give a phrase) A pot full of interesting treasures...
Unpredictable.
Actually??? (kembang)
7. What was your first impression?
Friendly but super quiet. Maybe coz we are from the opposite sex.
Wierd. Coz you were abit 'siao' in Kampar at the stream...
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
Definitely not on the second word... :-p
Nope. You are just noisy in your own way.
9. What reminds you of me?
The colour Yellow.
Pebbles.
Everyone remembers me thanks to my job...
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
I hate shopping, so this is a difficult question.
11. How well do you know me?
Hmm... I'm not sure, honestly...
12. When's the last time you saw me?
A bit more than a month d...
JS graduation...
Miss you in church camp. Guys, don't think otherwise, again!!!!
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
None
Rock on!!! (i meant that to be ironic)
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
The question is confusing me.
15. What is my best attribute?
Creativeness. Enthusiastic.
Words. Rare but expensive. Always makes me think.
Willingness to serve- really???? (kembang again)
Edit: added stone's. In Red.
1. Who are you?
Erm, i don't know... LOL!!!!
2. Are we friends?
Yep.
Definitely. Saliva-mates (when sleeping) in JS because our beds are neighbours physically.
3. When and how did we meet?
MYF. When i was F1...
JS 2009. You rock dude.
4. Did you like me at all?
She's a pleasant girl... Makes me smile at her comments. Don't think otherwisE!!!!!
yep. If not mana boleh tahan for 6 weeks leh.
She likes me? hmm... (lol)
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
I pick Dee-jie, juz to make her feel old... :-p
Stone. It's self explanatory.
I'm only fond of tomatoes only coz i like red...
6. Describe me in one word.
(i'll give a phrase) A pot full of interesting treasures...
Unpredictable.
Actually??? (kembang)
7. What was your first impression?
Friendly but super quiet. Maybe coz we are from the opposite sex.
Wierd. Coz you were abit 'siao' in Kampar at the stream...
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
Definitely not on the second word... :-p
Nope. You are just noisy in your own way.
9. What reminds you of me?
The colour Yellow.
Pebbles.
Everyone remembers me thanks to my job...
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
I hate shopping, so this is a difficult question.
11. How well do you know me?
Hmm... I'm not sure, honestly...
12. When's the last time you saw me?
A bit more than a month d...
JS graduation...
Miss you in church camp. Guys, don't think otherwise, again!!!!
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
None
Rock on!!! (i meant that to be ironic)
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
The question is confusing me.
15. What is my best attribute?
Creativeness. Enthusiastic.
Words. Rare but expensive. Always makes me think.
Willingness to serve- really???? (kembang again)
Back
from outstation.
It was crazy. try going for 3 camps in a row (and doing the sound).
I'm tired. Of traveling, packing bags, working and not sleeping.
More updates coming up.
First up: Church camp
It was crazy. try going for 3 camps in a row (and doing the sound).
I'm tired. Of traveling, packing bags, working and not sleeping.
More updates coming up.
First up: Church camp
Wednesday, 3 June 2009
TAG from Alfred
1. Who are you?
A human being
2. Are we friends?
Yeah. JS MATES!!!!
3. When and how did we meet?
YLDP '07
4. Did you like me at all?
erm??? lol! of course lar
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
Alfredo. Coz that's how i rmbr u. It IS your nick, mah...
6. Describe me in one word.
Quiet. Meaningful, joyous. oops.
7. What was your first impression?
None, actually. Wierd, right???
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
It's obvious, right???
9. What reminds you of me.
my phonebook. You are no.2 in the list.
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
hmm... interesting question. No idea.
11. How well do you know me?
not sure...
12. When's the last time you saw me?
JS graduation. MISS YOU MAN!!!!
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
You are cool??? lol. Seriously, i wished i was closer to you...
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
Don't understand the question
15. What is my best attribute?
Hmm.... i feel you are joyful all the time...
TAG :
-Andrew
-Ern Wei
-Kent
-Mike Sam
-Praise
-Stone
-Jun Arn
-Wen Dee
Ps: i love doing tags...
A human being
2. Are we friends?
Yeah. JS MATES!!!!
3. When and how did we meet?
YLDP '07
4. Did you like me at all?
erm??? lol! of course lar
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
Alfredo. Coz that's how i rmbr u. It IS your nick, mah...
6. Describe me in one word.
Quiet. Meaningful, joyous. oops.
7. What was your first impression?
None, actually. Wierd, right???
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
It's obvious, right???
9. What reminds you of me.
my phonebook. You are no.2 in the list.
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
hmm... interesting question. No idea.
11. How well do you know me?
not sure...
12. When's the last time you saw me?
JS graduation. MISS YOU MAN!!!!
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
You are cool??? lol. Seriously, i wished i was closer to you...
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
Don't understand the question
15. What is my best attribute?
Hmm.... i feel you are joyful all the time...
TAG :
-Andrew
-Ern Wei
-Kent
-Mike Sam
-Praise
-Stone
-Jun Arn
-Wen Dee
Ps: i love doing tags...
Tuesday, 2 June 2009
Regrets
Talk about regrets
I regret the not
I regret not choosing the correct path over many times in my life
I regret not putting priority in what actually matters
I regret
Talk about regrets
I regret getting involved in things i should have never even considered
I regret in corrupting myself in ways previously unknown
I regret the places and times of red
I regret
Talk about regrets
I regret not going for somethings i should have went to
I regret losing the closeness of many friends so dear to me
I regret being responsible for the damage i've done
I regret
Talk about regrets
I regret delaying things which should have been overdue
I regret making things too little, too late
I regret not growing in the correct way
I regret
Regrets, there in each point of life
A beautiful work of art in destructing you
Mutilating you
But a moulding necessary to create you
A distinct being
So one thing i do know:
I do not regret going through all of it.
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Sorry. In a emo mood. I know this sucks.
I regret the not
I regret not choosing the correct path over many times in my life
I regret not putting priority in what actually matters
I regret
Talk about regrets
I regret getting involved in things i should have never even considered
I regret in corrupting myself in ways previously unknown
I regret the places and times of red
I regret
Talk about regrets
I regret not going for somethings i should have went to
I regret losing the closeness of many friends so dear to me
I regret being responsible for the damage i've done
I regret
Talk about regrets
I regret delaying things which should have been overdue
I regret making things too little, too late
I regret not growing in the correct way
I regret
Regrets, there in each point of life
A beautiful work of art in destructing you
Mutilating you
But a moulding necessary to create you
A distinct being
So one thing i do know:
I do not regret going through all of it.
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Sorry. In a emo mood. I know this sucks.
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