1. How old are you?
Eighteen
2. Are you single?
YEP. That's why i'm feeling desperate. LOL... (juz joking. I juz feel lonely at times)
3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
Whenever is a right time. I don't mind waiting. Juz wanna get rid of my trauma (don't ask if dunno) first. Dun wan my 'other half' to be burdened by it. And also a stable life also.
4. Do you think you'll marry the person you are with now?
I'm alone now... so... heheheh.
5. If not, who you want to marry?
Somebody i can proudly say is DAMN HOT!!!! (not you hon. :P)
6. Who will be your bridesmaid and bestman?
i feel bad to choose... serious.
7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
A mix. Long explanation.
8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
Somewhere hot. Steamy. Romantic. And... (oops)
9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
Close buddies and family members. And FnF who know how to par-ty...
The numbers probably reach only 100 for ceremony and 200 for dinner... Or less.
10. Will that include your exes?
Defitnately not my first ex. (Yes, i have been in a relationship)
11. How many layers of cake do you want?
The maximum number possible of some nice icecream cake with molten choc topping... ah.
12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
Evening. More romantic and can party harder... lol.
13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
A song i write
Not the usual playlist of songs. I've been to too many weddings doing sound.
Defitnately some praise and worship song. God is important.
14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon & fork? Knife?
Chopsticks. LoL. Juz joking.
15. Champagne or red wine?
Hm.... haven't tried both, so... :-p
(i might decide to make it a 'clean' wedding)
16. Honeymoon right after wedding or days after the wedding?
Hmm...
17. Money or household items?
Money. Household items come later...
18. How many kids would you like to have?
Dunno.
19. Will you record your honeymoon on DVD/CD?
But must be censored... You know, kids. :-p
20. Colour of wedding dress?
Pure white. Got reason. Serious. But i must look hawt in it...
21. Wedding card?
Very, very specially designed... Award winning kind.
22. Wedding gift?
What wedding gift?
23. Camera man?
Duh.
24. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?
Whosoever who likes to do it.
Wednesday, 29 July 2009
Sunday, 26 July 2009
Thursday, 23 July 2009
Floored by glory
Was at Prayer meeting last night. and i was floored.
Never seen my pastor prayed so passionately before... at least for soooo long.
Never seen some adults (especially uncle Mak n aunty Margaret) pray so fervently before
Never cried in a adult's prayer meeting before... unless if i was in a youth's only group.
Never had a chance where i actually managed to keep silent... for a whole 40 minutes.
And heard about a vision which disturbed, but sitrred....
Wow.
Never seen my pastor prayed so passionately before... at least for soooo long.
Never seen some adults (especially uncle Mak n aunty Margaret) pray so fervently before
Never cried in a adult's prayer meeting before... unless if i was in a youth's only group.
Never had a chance where i actually managed to keep silent... for a whole 40 minutes.
And heard about a vision which disturbed, but sitrred....
Wow.
Show me Your glory.
Show me Your glory.
I want to gaze into the beauty of Your holiness.
and show me Your glory, I'm desperate to see,and
I will be still as You reveal Your glory.
Verse:
I am drawing near to be with You,
there's a longing in my heart to be with You.
Call my name and I will answer You,
in humble truth, Lord, here I am.
Hide me in Your hand and show me Your glory, show me your glory
I want to gaze into the beauty of Your holiness.
and show me Your glory lord,Show me your glory, I'm desperate to see,and
I will be still as You reveal
I will be still as You reveal, Your glory.
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
Sunday, 12 July 2009
Thursday, 9 July 2009
Nightmares
Had a terrible nightmare last night. Two. One symbolic, one is one that i've gone tru.
Woke up with dried tears and my whole self disorientated. Lucky i ain't got much work today (the reason why i'm blogging at this time of the day, or even blogging for that matter.)
Anyways.
Things have been good on my side so far, with business and busyness rolling in like a hurricane. It's a good thing, because that meant i won't need to worry so much on the financial side of the business that much and worry more on producing better quality work, logistics for the ever-stressful and unpredictable events and erm, future plans for me and the company (like new gear - my favourite... :-p). Only big struggle is to make sure all this don't sweep my focus off from the most important thing in my life.
However, as always, there's a damper in the jovial proceedings - hauntings. I now get frequently haunted by my past in the forms of pre-sleep nightmares and during sleep nightmares. It spoils the mood, and kind of frightens me, as it's a repeat of the trauma and i... loathe it. It feels as if a monster breathing down my neck and choking me. I absolutely feel trapped whenever those nightmares happen. Luckily it has not destroyed my physical rhythm, other than the fact that my whole body aches for no bloody reason. Mentally it's the same old roller coaster ride thanks to this. This is effecting my other big problem - my relationship with D. I have several stuffs i wish i can get over with him but it seems more and more likely it won't be till his death. Haiz.
Also, being 18 starts to make you feel desperate for a relationship. But on that matter, there many, many other things making me feel... confused and stuck. Still.
"Could be worse."
Woke up with dried tears and my whole self disorientated. Lucky i ain't got much work today (the reason why i'm blogging at this time of the day, or even blogging for that matter.)
Anyways.
Things have been good on my side so far, with business and busyness rolling in like a hurricane. It's a good thing, because that meant i won't need to worry so much on the financial side of the business that much and worry more on producing better quality work, logistics for the ever-stressful and unpredictable events and erm, future plans for me and the company (like new gear - my favourite... :-p). Only big struggle is to make sure all this don't sweep my focus off from the most important thing in my life.
However, as always, there's a damper in the jovial proceedings - hauntings. I now get frequently haunted by my past in the forms of pre-sleep nightmares and during sleep nightmares. It spoils the mood, and kind of frightens me, as it's a repeat of the trauma and i... loathe it. It feels as if a monster breathing down my neck and choking me. I absolutely feel trapped whenever those nightmares happen. Luckily it has not destroyed my physical rhythm, other than the fact that my whole body aches for no bloody reason. Mentally it's the same old roller coaster ride thanks to this. This is effecting my other big problem - my relationship with D. I have several stuffs i wish i can get over with him but it seems more and more likely it won't be till his death. Haiz.
Also, being 18 starts to make you feel desperate for a relationship. But on that matter, there many, many other things making me feel... confused and stuck. Still.
"Could be worse."
Thursday, 2 July 2009
This is so cool...
Yes, it's a Micheal Jackson cover. (not that i care about it) Yes, it's accapella.
But that's why i found it. They are seriously good. Check it out.
No need to mention MJ. I just like his vocals + inspirational music. Full stop.
Meanwhile...
It seems weird the tears can come even after more than 3 months... The tears of missing people.
But that's why i found it. They are seriously good. Check it out.
No need to mention MJ. I just like his vocals + inspirational music. Full stop.
Meanwhile...
It seems weird the tears can come even after more than 3 months... The tears of missing people.
Wednesday, 1 July 2009
Hey all. It's me again from a old com.
-Com jammed 5 times before managed to type that line-
Music can really move your soul. Particularly Christian worship music. That lifted me up from the wallowing pit i had been of late.
Well, that was one whole day of music. Found some interesting old cassettes to play back too... Sometimes, this is how you can worship God, apparently...
After finally managing to lose myself in God's presence once more, i feel much better now.
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I read with much interest the posts on the Subang Rally 2009 blog. Have my own opinions about their words which i intend to keep to myself... Not bad, don't worry. Just... subjective.
Got a youth prayer meeting to go to after this. Whee! (not meant sacastically.)
"Sometimes, the supernatural starts with us"
-Com jammed 5 times before managed to type that line-
Music can really move your soul. Particularly Christian worship music. That lifted me up from the wallowing pit i had been of late.
Well, that was one whole day of music. Found some interesting old cassettes to play back too... Sometimes, this is how you can worship God, apparently...
After finally managing to lose myself in God's presence once more, i feel much better now.
-------
I read with much interest the posts on the Subang Rally 2009 blog. Have my own opinions about their words which i intend to keep to myself... Not bad, don't worry. Just... subjective.
Got a youth prayer meeting to go to after this. Whee! (not meant sacastically.)
"Sometimes, the supernatural starts with us"
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