New look, new me?

Maybe not. For example, the lack of updates to this blog shows

but anyhow, if you guys havent noticed on FB recently, here goes...

(smexy, no? =p)

The mohawk won't stay there all the time (lazy + time), but you get the idea what kinda hair i have now.

The considerations were plentiful. One, i was getting bored of my old hair, and the other, i have a bit of a rash issue near the edges of my hair. Since my dear housemates + friends was thinking of giving me a make over, i went ahead and, viola.

I am now more than halfway through my diploma, and i would be turning 21 next month. Stress is mounting on all fronts, but the same problem still persists almost since i got entered college. and it is getting old...

But you know what? this made a lot of sense to me all of a sudden (caution: explicit words):-

(credits to 9gag. yeah. That addictive site.)

It's not that i get annoyed with the church and all that. I realized all this while, and i hate to admit it, I'm disillusioned. With the church. With my life. Even worse, with my faith.

I guess you can call me a temporary agnostic for now. A far cry from what i was two year ago, i know. I have been through a lot. And that, is that.

(for those wondering, agnostic simply means those who believe in the existence of God but not in any institution/religion/belief)

Whether I'll regain my footing as what i was, or become "normal" again, i do not know. But for now, i go with the flow. And discover.

And much has been discovered. If anything, I'm interested with people who do not put masks on. Honest, blunt people.

But now since i finally realized what has been causing me to hesitate going to church, i might just drop by that certain place to check it out. The experiences last time was real, after all.

It's me again.

Life's been busy as per the usual, with tons of drama since my last proper post. YLDP, new years, college, work, work, work, work.

It's weird, the feeling when the things that you feel close to your heart is being messed up and you no longer have any control, simply cause you did not respond fast enough.

i guess leave it all to HIM? hmm.

i guess i need to do something about this too, though. hmm.

a saying that's been engraved in my mind for a very long time (a not easy to follow one, at that) is something along the lines of: "we can pray for God for wind to push the sails, but we must row the boat as well!" (it's by Enid Blyton. my puny mind does not remember word for word) Food for thought.

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ps: i'll try to update my blog weekly from henceforth. i am, a procrastinating lil bastard, though.

the irritating thoughts never do leave me at night, do they?

busy, busy, busy, busy.

haih.